Saturday, June 22, 2013

Just try to resist me.

Thoughts recently going through my head:

Is it better to avoid a potential situation or let the worst happen? D&D has definitely taught me that there is nothing cowardly from retreat or avoidance. Sometimes, those are the best actions to take. But how do you really know? Is it just delaying the inevitable? Or does it make you the better person?

What is said by one person can have long lasting ripple effects. Sometimes, we don’t really take the time to think about what we say. We don’t think of the possible ramifications, but go with the current emotions being felt. Sometimes this is good and it clears the air. Sometimes, this muddies the water so much that the ripple effects are not seen for a long time. And sometimes, we cannot even think of what the possible ramifications are… until they happen.

What do you do when a relationship built on being sounding boards and esteem-boosts seems to suddenly become mired in apathy and distance? How do you open up to people when the last time you did you were told hurtful things? How do you trust someone when you are afraid they think bad things about you and are being told these things by others? How do you reach out when the last time you did not only was your hand slapped, but it was sliced off?

Warning: Going outside of one’s comfort zone can lead to low self-esteem, doubts, and emotional eating. Supposedly there is a reward at the end; however, that has been postponed due to extenuating circumstances. Can I stand going several more weeks dealing with all of these negative emotions until I get the reward? What if there is no reward at the end? What if my expectations and hopes are too high?

My heart goes out to those in Southern Alberta who are affected by the flooding. Please stay safe and I hope things start to ebb soon. Hopefully, flooding will not also happen in Edmonton or Saskatchewan as anticipated.

Warning: Superstore’s Peanut Butter ice cream is absolutely divine. Obviously, it is not a good thing for those allergic to peanuts, but for others, it is delicious. The creaminess and then the crunchy ribbons all add up to an utter treat.

Fitbit is an addictive tool. D and I have become even more mired in gadgetry. We have purchased the Fitbit flex bands as well as the scale. Combine these with the free app and the online information and it is both fascinating and scary. If I was a more competitive person, it could be dangerous. But I really wanted it for the sleep feature. You wear this extremely light, water resistant band on your wrist and not only does it count your steps, your activity, and monitor your sleep, it also can calculate calories and provide detailed analysis on your sleep habits, keep you in line with goals, and help you lose weight. The scale calculates your weight and body fat and connects with the app and online program to reconfigure your calorie and activity needs. I have connected it to the My Fitness Pal app which I use to consolidate my food and activities and the programs work together to keep me going. There are badges as encouragement and you can include friends so you can motivate, encourage, and compete (if desire). The con I have found so far is that as a person who carries my purse in my hand, this decreases my step count. My pedometer must still be worn and I haven’t figured out yet how to adjust my step count to match my pedometer. The sleep feature alone is totally worth it to me. You let it know when you go to sleep and when you awake with a few quick taps. It then monitors you as to when you sleep, for how long, how many times you were restless or awake. You can easily drag your finger across the chart to see the times and duration. This was wonderful for me as I know I haven’t been getting quality sleep lately. I haven’t determined quite what to do with this information, but I am hoping it will help me over time. Both the Fitbit Flex band and Aria Scale can be found at your local London Drugs. I am sure other places have it, but they were advertising it.

Next year my potato patch is becoming a sunflower patch. After weeding 3 grocery bags of sunflower plants away from my potatoes, this is what I have decided. I love self-seeding plants. Mind you, there are also 3 or 4 potato plants out front that I did not plant and are obviously from last year. Who knew? I have started to eat my perennial lettuce out front. Yum, yum. And the parsley from last year tasted delicious with our barbequed potatoes today (unfortunately store bought not home grown yet).

One of my bestest friends is moving closer! Whoot! This is very exciting to me as for five years, I have been trying to visit her and have not been able to. Of course, once she leaves, work is sending me to her last location for training. Five years people and you wait until two days after she leaves to send me?!? Cruel. So cruel. Please do not let this mean I will not being going to her new location. I have been there several times in the last couple years – do not change this. Please.

I have some wonderfully creative friends who are excited about events in my life. And I adore them even more for their enthusiasm and kindness. Not many people would do all they did to provide suggestions and advice. I hope you know just how special you are to me.

News: Candy Crush is as addictive as heroin. Seriously, this is what is being said. I can totally believe this. The game is wonderful and frustrating. But let me say this, I don’t like chocolate (being allergic and all this is expected). I hate chocolate after this game – chocolate makes me want to rant and rave at the game.

I am also addicted to Jewel Mania and often prefer it over Candy Crush, except the last update made the game seem to go so slow. It is very frustrating to play when it takes forever for your move to take effect. Since I am now up to a level that is timed, I can no longer play the game until this is fixed. Sighhhh…

There are so many things I want to say about the political climate, but I just shake my head instead. I am so disappointed in our leaders and how they are handling situations. Not that the opposition is much better. And this is all levels. Between scandals, protests, cat fights, and acquittals, I just dislike where we are as a nation right now.

Interesting pilot was done which has people being paid to turn in cigarette butts. For each butt you returned, you received a penny – like the bottle depot system. I think this is a fabulous idea. Our government does not. We could totally make it a sustainable system and think how much good we could do keeping these out of our sewer systems, off our streets, and out of ecosystem.

Anyway, it is late and I am exhausted. One day left of holidays and then back to work. As usual, the time has passed far too quickly and this was despite me not filling it with appointments and places to visit. I should go enjoy the ability to sleep in.

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