Affection can withstand very severe storms of vigor, but not a long polar frost of indifference.

by Sir Walter Scott

How is it I can be excited to spend the day mostly alone, but then be so lonely because I have no one to do anything with? Today was been that day. I was up early to attend a 2 year olds b-day party, but was planning all the things I could do before I got up. I had fun at the party, always good to see some people I rarely see. But as we were all leaving so the kids could go down for a nap, everyone else was splitting into groups to do stuff and I drove away alone, feeling alone. It has been a good day. After the party, I went by the library and took out some books, stopped for a slurpee. I put on a chick flick, drank my slurpee, read the rest of the paper and organized the library books I got out. Then I made supper while doing some chores. I went for a walk and then played around a bit on the computer. Soon, I will be heading off to bed on fresh sheets! It’s been a good day. I didn’t do the work stuff I brought home, but I don’t care. So why am I still a little lonely? Hmmm, how odd.

I am trying to instill a new lesson for myself – I am a list maker. Aren’t so many of us? I always have a list of to-do’s, whether written or in my head. At the end of the day, it is a good day when the list is smaller; however, it is never done. That is a lot of pressure and with all the other carp in my life, I have decided to change my to-do list to a could-do list; thus, no pressure to get it done and perhaps less stress. Now to convince my type A, dominating, perfectionist personality. Sighhh.

On an aside note, I tried the ‘pretend spaghetti’ from the Dr. Bernstein’s diet tonight. I have issues with Dr. Bernstein’s diet on many levels (see previous posts), but my father and the couple of friends I know who have done the diet seem to really like the recipes. So tonight I tried the Pretend Spaghetti. Now, I did have to alter the recipe a bit as Dr. Bernstein depends on Vegeta for a lot of his recipes and the salt content on that is far to high for a salt-sensitive person like myself; however, it wasn’t bad. My meat sauce tastes better, but I think I will make it again where the spaghetti is actually bean sprouts – that was surprisingly delish! So really, make your favorite meat sauce for spaghetti and instead of cooking up pasta, boil bean sprouts for about 15 minutes in salted water (see there is that salt again!). Nummy.

Anyway, I just wanted to pop on and share those few thoughts. I can feel myself fading fast right now as I am tired. So off to bed for me it is…