The cup runneth over…

I called in sick today. After the stressful last week and this weekend, and after 5 days of having a migraine, I finally gave in, called in sick and slept until after noon. This afternoon, the Tylenol is actually working, so I must be getting better.

Last week was just filled with so much to do for the weekend and because of the migraine, I didn’t get done as much as I wanted. D made fun of me and how anal I was over the cleanliness of the house. Well, duh! I have a certain standard that must be maintained when company comes over and since for the first time since we moved in I was letting people go upstairs, I needed to make sure things were tidy and that I wouldn’t scare some of my friends.

Friday was interesting. The girls’ nite sex toy party went well. We all had fun, though the presenter was a little skittish (despite doing the job for about a year) when it came to anal sex and the ‘heavy artillery’ aka toys. She didn’t pass them around much, which was annoying cause that is half the fun. But we all had fun, the treats went over well – everyone loves the peanut butter squares and I had my famous dip as well. I had set up the front so you walked through red and black curtains (thank you IKEA for the last minute black curtains in the As Is section) into my ‘bordello’ and thankfully, most people were impressed with my hat and mask collection in my dressing room. And since most of my more goth items are in jewelry boxes, none of my work comrades had to see that part of me.

Saturday was milady_j’s bday party at the Roost, which was fun. S showed up and was a hoot as usual. Once you get to know him, he is just a riot. I can totally see what Aa sees in him, despite their apparent dissimilar interests. I embarrassingly did the SNL Superstar move to the Superstar song – 3 times – which got lots of laughs, and I blame D for encouraging me. Heehee. A had her favorite song played early in the evening and then we encouraged her to sing along with “Shut up and sleep with me, come on now won’t you sleep with me”. The music was awesome, except for a few that dated others and that I did not recognize. The only down point was they played a song that is very much a favorite, but recently has been linked to certain not to be discussed events and so while I love the song and sang along, I have determined that it is hard to listen to when the people involved are there. The sad point was that while I had a wonderful time and pushed any negativity away, the next afternoon it all came rushing back.

Sunday was spent with the bed during the day and gaming at night. I love my waterbed and for the first 15+ years I had with the original mattress, the worst I dealt with was my last cat tended to spring leaks in the top of the bed. Easily rectified. Since we replaced that bladder with a new one, we have problems. The first one split a seam, so we returned it. This one after a couple years had a hole. We have spent the last few weeks trying to find the hole. Sunday, we drained the bed almost completely, only to find that the hole was in the middle of the bed, on the bottom, on top of the heater and it was along the baffle. So no clue how it happened, but I ended up spending a couple hours trying to fix the hole. Now vinyl glue – not good for migraines. Also, when you are already emotional and the memories of certain events come back with a song and D is being an arse, that is not a good time to try to fix a bed or deal with a migraine or smell vinyl glue. Let’s just say – I was in the depths of despair for a while. Gaming though was good. We have finished our module – which seemed to take forever and naturally took longer than should have. We saved the day? I believe we did, though unless D does a wrap up email, we will never really know what happened. Sadly, it means though that R has gone towards the sunset, probably rarely to be seen again. My feet will miss the foot rubs, my mind the intellectual conversations, my career esteem the knowledge of how our similar degrees are not used in our current careers, and gaming will just not be the same without his wit and his style of behavior. I take a moment to remember the good times.

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Anyway, so such is the fun of my life. Sundays are clear of gaming for a few weeks, while we all take stock and see what we want to do. See if we want to spend our Sunday evenings entrenched with each other. I know part of me wants my Sundays back, especially with the last bit of power gaming that has been done. It is just no fun when certain people create their characters around how tough they can be, instead of around a history and personality. I like having characters that develop, that interact with the world and that don’t depend on combat to be fun. Don’t get me wrong, I am a geek enough to respect a good fight, but the writer and creative person in me wants a character that is evolving and learning and works as a team with the others, not on their own. Besides, sleep is a good thing. The other part of me will miss doing the regular gaming and the creating of a character. And of course, it is a reason to cook and clean. Who knows what the house will look like without regular guests. Heehee.

There's always a silver lining...

When the volcano Krakatoa erupted in 1883, it cause tremendous, unprecedented devastation. But it also threw so much dust into the atmosphere, it caused the most beautiful red sunsets around the world for the following year.

We must maintain a positive thought towards what will happen now that Harper is the leader of Canada. Such as the fact that hell obviously is freezing over and heat rises, therefore we should continue to have a mild winter this year. And perhaps this has been the reason for global warming all along.

I can't get over how pathetic Albertans are. I must be a minority in Alberta, as I really don't think that the Conservatives are the best representatives for this province. And we thought the Liberals were bad - the Conservatives have had nothing but controversy. We can't allow the fact that Klein, a conservative, has paid down Alberta's debt be the rating for the whole party. There were several candidates who have done questionable/controversial things during the election. They have Jaffer who we all remember from previous elections and his 'issues' and of course, Goldring - the representative brought up on charges of Hatred by the RCMP. And of course, Harper - I have talked enough about him. My concern is what if he keeps his promises - he actually revisits the sex club, the gay marriage and the abortion issues. What I see him doing is dragging us backwards - taking away the rights of the individual so that a few extremist religious and 'supposedly' moral folks can be satisfied. In Supernatural, I liked what Dean had to say at one point about protecting people from extremists who decide that God has given them the right to make the decisions for all. No one has given them the right to decide anything for any of us. Let them decide what is right for them and then SHUT the F'in UP! No one needs to have these few decide on the societal rules and try to enforce them. We are supposed to be FREE people. That gives us the right to decide what is right for us and hey let's follow what is the basis of most religions - let it harm none.

Anyway, that is my view on the outcome of the election. Now, we just wait and see.

In other news, I am so stressed out this week. I have so much to do and this weekend is packed full of activities and I took off Friday so I could have some time to do other things that need to be done and I do not know if I will be ready for the girl's nite I am having on Friday. I just hope I can cover enough of the messiness up so no one notices. Heehee. And then anyone reading this who is coming, just pretend you didn't read that and notice how clean the house is. Is it working? I can't smile any wider.

It's late and I should get some sleep. I have done a lot today, both at work and at home, so I am tired.

Figured you out

Elephant copulation last twenty seconds. That should make a lot of men feel better.

Speaking of men who have penis envy problems, let’s get the political stuff over with right away – on Tuesday, I went looking online for the party platforms – I thought it was very interesting the number of pages each party claimed was the platform.
Liberals 86
Conservatives 46
NDP 52
Green 30

Now the Liberal platform was easy to find and really long – I will admit I barely skimmed it. The Conservative platform was rather tedious to find and was a rather interesting platform, because their whole premise is that Martin is not going to uphold his promises, but they will and they won’t be vague. They tell it like it is and their promises are “clear and measurable so Canadians will know that a Conservative government has kept its word.” Except for things like the environment – “Clean up federal contaminated sites and encourage the private sector to clean up brownfields.” How is this measurable? How are you going to encourage the private sector? It just came across like a book report by someone who had read the synopsis and kinda threw together the report. Oh, and we won’t mention the latest scandal about how their promises which were so perfectly budgeted has been disputed by the accountant who did them because he claims he didn’t have all the information.

I printed the Green party and the NDP platforms. I actually want to read those. And I must say I was impressed by the Green party’s platform. It was really well written.

Anyway, back to my life of domesticity. Ooh, I saw the most awesome picture.



It is partially true. When the computer is acting up, my house does appear cleaner. Usually though, I can’t resist the lure of staring into the void called my monitor, despite the fact that I stare at a computer for most of my workday. At least at home, I know I am not being monitored constantly.

We had an interesting person in work today. I can’t give you any specific details, but this person actually believes her whole family is out to get to her and she knows that they tell everyone that she is crazy, but they stole her lottery winnings. She was in the office for several hours and she was telling everyone about it, unless you were staring at her and then she got really aggressive, cause you must be working for THEM. Wow. That was all I could think. I mean, maybe it is true, but I don’t know if I would be telling everyone about it. Quiet paranoia is much more my specialty. She supposedly had it out with a relative that day and part of me wonders if she has a few people inside her head or if she just randomly had it out with someone. Did I mention the other day that I had a dream that someone came into the office waving a gun? Yeah, and then two days later, she comes. And the full moon was last weekend. Yeah.

So I have been thinking – friends have burned me several times in the past. Most of the time, I have let things slide or I easily forgive, but there comes a time when you put your foot down and you say that is it. I lost a good long-term friend because of it – someone who initially had been there with me through the thin and thick of both our lives, and then it became all about her. And I got tired of being the listening board that was not allowed to talk. Or if I did, it only led to her one-upping me. So since then, I don’t tend to let things slide as much. I expect equal time and that means that hopefully when I talk, someone is listening. So now I am at a point, where someone didn’t listen or didn’t want to listen or didn’t understand or all three, and I feel like I have lost something. It’s not that we’re no longer friends, but I don’t feel like I can just talk freely anymore. We talk and I listen and when the conversation comes to me, I just…skim the surface. I know it takes time to rebuild trust and all that mumble jumble stuff, but I just feel like a flying kite whose string is no longer being held. Eh, mixing metaphors. Must stop now.

Did I mention I can actually see parts of my office table? I am very impressed. This has lasted two days now. Now, if I can just find the papers I wanted to send a friend… But that is the other table. It’s not quite so neat. Heehee. I suppose I should go through it though. Sighhh.

Oh, and I did find out that you can overuse the left button. It is the button that breaks the most often.

Naughty Girls need love too…

Can you actually overuse the left button of the mouse? Mine is acting so pathetic as of late that it is starting to make me just a touch pissed. I replaced the batteries (it’s wireless) and I have cleaned the bottom and the site it sits on, but still, it resists my efforts to use it. Very annoying.

Mentally, I am feeling anally domestic. I walk around my home and catalogue all the little things that need to be done and then I may do one or two, and then I get tired. I have been tossing some stuff – which is good. But of course most of what I have been working on is behind closed doors, so I don’t see it all the time. And then it feels like I did nothing.

Today, I organized the main bathroom. Tossed out some bath stuff that was a few years old – oops. And my cat eye contacts from 3 years ago and no, I have not worn them recently. I pout some stuff I had bought long ago and hadn’t used into a bag for donations and made room for D’s tackle box. In all, that was an hour of work. Prior to that, I had spent an hour tidying D’s computer area and the games room. I know it has only been 3 weeks since Christmas but D had not even unpackaged some of the gifts. That’s done now, so D can work on putting it where it goes. And I cleaned the gaming table. Certain people who regularly game with me are very messy people. The table is clutter free, but it needs a good scrubbing as soon as we finish this module.

Now, that I have spent 2 hours cleaning, I am tired and I don’t want to do anymore. Even though I sit in my office now and remember when just a little bit ago, I had seen the table under all this mess. It is all new stuff too. Sighhh! I really should clean it. Course I really should fix the tie rack in the closet and take the boxes to the shed and set up the new printer and dejunk the ornaments and … sighhh. And that is why little seems to get done. It is never ending. And silly me, I watched a show today called Til Debt do us part. This one was about a couple who were in a lot of debt cause the husband had been sick for 6 months and they didn’t change their lifestyles. And while the show was interesting, it didn’t really teach anything. But it did bring me down cause I know I like to live outside my income. (It’s the darn books – I love the books – they call my name every time I go near a bookstore.) And I know I should go through the finances, but that is too depressing. And I should figure out supper, but I don’t want to. I think need more sugar.

I have been rather domestic for the last few days, so I guess I am allowed to be a little less today. The day started well, a nice leisurely wake up, shower and facial, and I cleaned the tub and then a nice leisurely breakfast and reading of the paper. Then I decided I should do something. I should went for the walk I wanted cause the ice mist was out and it looked so pretty, but the responsible part kicked my arse and I did some work.

Thursday, I saw the new Queen Latifah movie Last Holiday with L. She won tickets for the screening. It is a good movie and if it was on television, I would probably watch it again if nothing else was on, but I wouldn’t have paid for it and I won’t buy it. It was really funny and it was cute, but both L and I thought the ending was, as the paper said, contrived.

I am trying to ignore the political crap that is going on, though it is hard. I still don’t know who is running in my area other than the one Conservative – Mr. Traditional Marriage. What a load of crap. Seriously, if two people of any sex want to get married and deal with the crap that goes with it and the chance of losing half of everything in divorce, then I say go for it. Homosexuality is not new. Get over it. Accept that people love people and move on. Yeah, so needless to say he is not getting my vote. I don’t know why it scares people so much. If they knew half of what goes in people’s lives and thoughts, we should be scared of everyone.

The latest in the editorial was about the Supreme Court ruling that swinger clubs were legal. The editorial was about how horrible the ruling was and how immoral people are. Again, it is not new. And it happens in the most normal of neighborhoods, whether or not you notice it. Who is it to say that the big party down the block isn’t a swinger party? Who knows what happens behind the doors? It is not like they usually advertise. And so what if they want to get together at a member only club and do what they want. It is not public and it is usually not free. I wish the public would stay out of everyone’s private life. Is there not enough happening in Hollywood to distract you from your neighbors? Hey – Angelina’s pregnant with Brad’s baby – go follow that up for awhile.

And stop with the comparison that this will lead to adults marrying and having sex with children, cause again, how is this any different from history? Does nobody remember social studies and how many kings married young girls and how many farmers married young girls? Once a girl hit puberty, she was ready to be married according to society. It is really only as of late that we have put age restrictions on marriage and sex. I am not saying what is right or wrong, but consensual sex between adults does NOT always lead to children being molested. From what I know about psychology, people do not replace the want for sex/lust of children by having sex with adults. That is two very different categories sexually.

Ooh, and Mr. Harper is the only party leader who verbally said that he would reopen that decision, as it’s not acceptable. Judging from his comments lately, I really think he either had a love affair with a male college roommate where the roommate dumped him, or he needs to have a affair with someone willing to loosen Harper’s anal passages. Okay, so I am not voting Conservative. I don’t know if I will vote Liberal either. If Anne McLellan was in my riding, I might consider it cause she is good. I thought she was awesome when I met her and after hearing of all the stuff she has done and fit into her life because she is the Only Liberal in the area, it is just amazing. I swear she has no life outside of her constituents. She is a busy woman. And goodness knows, we need some strong women in politics. However, Martin is pro-outsourcing of the federal departments. And he has not been pro-active towards the environment. I mean, Harper is anti-Kyoto, but I really have not seen Martin push Canadians towards bettering this world. Yes, Kyoto is a tough measure to have to take, but it is necessary and we agreed to meet its demands. Humans have fucked this planet royally, and we need to take the measures required to help heal it. But constantly procrastinating and lowering the standards, we are not doing anything to help. Mother Nature will get pissed eventually and get rid of the vermin that plagues her. How many Canadians are taking part in the One-Tonne Challenge? It’s easy to do and it helps the country.

Anyway, enough ranting. So much for not following politics, eh? Heehee, I suppose I should make an effort to think of a supper idea. Or at least, have my order ready for when D gets home. Heehee.

Hee Hee

Your Stipper Song Is

I'm a Slave 4 U by Britney Spears "I'm a slave for you. I cannot hold it; I cannot control it. I'm a slave for you. I won't deny it; I'm not trying to hide it." You may seem shy, but you can let your wild side out when you want to!

What Song Should You Strip To?

That is so funny, cause despite all my friends' Hatred of Britney, I do say you can dance to most of her stuff, be it fast or slow. That's why I own some of her songs. Hee hee. Oh, and when I redid the questions, answering with my other best choice, my stripper song was Toxic, by Britney Spears. Hee hee. Sorry. I thought that was too funny not to share.

A Cirque du Soleil with sandpaper pussy

HAPPY NEW YEAR! I hope everyone was doing something fun and meaningful for them for the New Year’s. It is said that what you are doing at midnight is what you will be doing the rest of the year. So I can happily say I was with a wonderful set of friends and I hope that this year is filled with more good times with them.

A&J’s party was a blast. Though it was funny watching the party move in large groups from the kitchen to the living room and back to the kitchen and back to the living room. The food was delicious as always, though I apologize for the shrimp being still frozen – who knew after a day in the fridge that it would still be frozen. Odd. The conversations were varied and it flowed. While sometimes, one might say the conversation bordered on TMI, I enjoyed learning so much more about my friends. Who shaves their nether regions, whose nipples are pierced, the weirdest dates, how D’s background is very vanilla. You knew that everyone was comfortable with the others and it was not only enlightening, but I felt connected with everyone.

We stayed til 3 (I am sorry) and we paid for that the next day. Wow, I still remember the summer where we were up until 6 am and slept until 2 pm. And I paid for that when I went back to school with the 8 am classes. And I felt like that yesterday. And our gaming group decided they wanted to play still last night. Oy! I am better now. Thank goodness.

So 2006 is here. Supposedly, it is the beginning of an eleven-year cycle of luck for me. Though that seems to be tempered with some bad bits, according to the Journal’s year in review for astrology. Not liking that. I am hoping it will be filled with lots of opportunities, lots of learning, and lots of good friends. I could wish World Peace, but really, sometimes, that feels like a pipedream, so I will just try for local peace. Amongst my friends and family. That should be challenging enough.

It could be interesting this year. I know of one friend who will be leaving our group and will be missed, but such are the consequences of decisions. And with the election, who knows what could happen. The latest is if the Conservatives don’t win, the Alberta Conservatives are throwing a pity party and declaring themselves Alberta separatists. I mean, really, are we voting in children or adults? I think the last good candidate was when an 18 year old was running. Course, other than a couple of signs, I have no idea who is running in my area. I haven’t heard from the NDP or the green party, let alone the supposed 2 big parties in the running. And really what is the point? There will not be a majority government. So how long before we have to do this again? How much money do the citizens have to shell out cause the politicians can’t play nice together? (I mean, really, did no one learn how to play nice and share in kindergarten?) How many times do we have to vote? And the more they call elections, the less people will come out- especially in February. It is flipping cold out and by then winter should have come and it will icky. Course, being me, I will be out voting cause I figure if you don’t vote, you don’t have a right to complain.

But that is my rant about politics. I really try not to follow politics too much, let alone discuss it. I have more important things to discuss, like how good I am at avoiding cleaning my office. I have written 3 emails and this blog entry all to avoid the inevitable. Eventually, I will have to clean. I can’t really see the top of my table. But I did clean 2 rooms upstairs. That should count. There is only 4 things left on my to do list for today. Heehee. Not including supper, which thankfully, I had a brainstorm yesterday and so I know what is for dinner today. That helps immensely. Ooh, and if I clean up the desk, I can put my new weekly calendar down. That is always exciting. And my new Spike Calendar can go up. Sighhh – James Marsters. God, that man has great cheekbones. Alright, I must go clean, must find the Spike Calendar.